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[18 Mar 2006|07:02pm] |
HAPPY BELATED ST PATTY'S DAY!!!
hope lots of ppl got lots of drinking done...lol
I for one didnt drink much, but enough to get buzzed. well...I did get to see some really interesting things cuz we were drinking...hehe...LMAO Danny...must drink with Danny again, I was laughing so hard through the night cuz of this kid (I dont care, hes still younger than me by the months) We all hung out at Jason's....the usual friday thing, try playing Silent Hill, get bored of it...and blah...random stuff...I dunno..
here's my conclusion: Danny = fun to drink with (lightweight, and retarded drunk XD), really scared of scary stuff (funny to see), annd its fun to hit him with stuff...
and I stayed over at Jason's....and...yea...eventful 2 days ^__~
I love my baby JJ <3
one more note...I HAVE TO STOP SEEMING SO FLIRTY!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DO I DO?!?!? Im much too playful...this is gonna take a while... T__T
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[12 Mar 2006|11:46am] |
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is it possible to like someone and not try to trust them? or should that trust be gained and built upon over time?
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[07 Mar 2006|06:20pm] |
one of my worst traits = obsessions >.<
My weekend was a lot of fun...seemed extremely short, but I feel like Im so heartless cuz theres people sad/depressed while Im here having fun all weekend. (ok dont comment on this part, its just my thoughts)
I've been putting more time into working out (since Im working out at QC too now) hopefully, I can lose this fat before the summer. Its useful in keeping me occupied so I dont have the time to be depressed constantly...but the problem still remains....I need a job...I dont really dont want to give up what I have now, Im putting my time into my studying/school (ok...not as much...but still), working out, and hanging out with friends...
note:
what sucks is thinking you like someone, but not knowing what to do because it could be a short crush/fling, they might not feel the same, and all those other possible reasons that I cant think of at the moment...
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[26 Feb 2006|12:20pm] |
heres a before and after pic, since I didnt get to take a pic of my room before I cleaned and rearranged (kinda lost the camera in the mess...)
 
whee...found the camera...
process of cleaning....
haha..Danny, Kim and Jason sitting in my mess XP
the new look! all nice and clean!
so beautiful...
I cleaned out my closet too...but you cant really see it here...
**NOTE**
I got 4 cuts, and 7 bruises while cleaning my room...my room is evul...its trying to kill me x_X
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| Why is something so painful, so much fun? |
[20 Feb 2006|10:52am] |
whee snowboarding is so much fun...but this time Im soooo sore...the ground was icy again...I didnt wanna try any jumps on bunny slope since I hurt myself so much already, wish it was all soft after snowing like Mt Elk was...well Camelback was cool, they had halfpipe, I didnt see it, I wouldnt go on it, but I at least wanted to see it, how big it was, and their trails are all S-like trails, narrow turns and stuff...I was soo scared to fall off the trails into the trees and off the cliff basically, and a lot of trails merge, and I hate that cuz then Im moving so slow down cuz for a while, the trail is flat and not a slope. Kim an I got stuck at one point, took us so long to get down, and apparently, I passed her without noticing.
I'm disappointed that I couldnt get any action shots of ppl this time, everyone just kinda scattered on the slopes, we went to all different slopes...was fun, but I WANTED PICS!!!!! I'll post them soon...
after we got back to the city we got some Chicken & rice...so good...I bought a lot, so I still have my food for the rest of today hehe...too bad we all went home afterwards, I wanted to stay out longer...went to 7/11 with Erik and Dave for a while, then I just went home, took a looong hot bubble bath...felt good after, but now Im still soo sore... >.<
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[05 Feb 2006|04:30pm] |
I LOVE MY PHONE!!
Motorola V3 Razr Cosmic Blue
yes...I gotta be unique, get the new color that barely anyone has ^__^
colors so far:
black
silver
dual black/silver
pink
magenta
light blue
AND cosmic blue
Im so tempted to take it apart...but Ill do that when I decide to buy faceplates for it...
bad thing is that we couldnt get Verizon afterall, said the phones were too expensive, so now Im back to T-Mobile.
bdays commin up, rest of chinese new yr parties commin up...hopefully Joyce working possibly soon...w00t w00t Ima start saving up my money again...
Priorities:
-paying off debt
-saving up money for China and Japan this summer
-getting new hdd
-flatpanel 17" monitor
-smaller/better digicam
-camcorder (hopefully...but not so important)
-snowboard (this can wait till next yr)
-wireless keyboard & optical or laser mouse (should get this soon...)
-more DS games (I WANT MORE!!!...but no money.. T-T)
-new mp3 player (hopefully selling ipod)
-books (I have a list of books I wanna get)
-models/figures (theres still some I really want, but Im out of space and money)
-and the list goes on...
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[02 Feb 2006|07:03pm] |
"What's up Joyce, always thought that you're hot!"
AAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
I
sure bet that my pics on sconex fool ur eyes, thats like the 1000th
(ok...thats exaggerating) time Ive gotten those
messages...blech...loser...
now for more not so positive news...my foot hurts now in addition to my back pain...damn weight room...damn my clumsiness
Im makin chocolates again this yr for <3s day ^__^
and no more dissecting the marshmellows Morg!! cuz we need to make lots this yr...
**EDIT**
I need money!! anyone able to hook me up with a job? Im prolly gonna be
applying to jobs sometime next week or latest, the week after (since I
need next weekend to make chocolates and plan on goin out celebrating)
HEY WE NEED TO GO HANG OUT NEXT WEEKEND!! CELEBRATING MORG'S BDAY!! (and mine..I guess..)
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[29 Jan 2006|09:07am] |
I want opinions...Im curious to see how people would respond to these situations.
If you really like someone, and you're really good friends with that
person, and you also dont know how that person feels about you, what
would you do?
a) stay friends, to keep things the way they are for as long as
possible to keep the friendship, but never know how the person feels
about you.
b) find out how the person feels about you, but try to still stay
friends, hoping nothing has changed between the two of you after
finding how each of you feel.
c) find out how the person feels about you, and try to take that step
further to get closer to that person, risking the friendship you once
had.
d) just take that extra step, risk everything in hopes of being
together/closer to that person, but possibly lose that friendship that
you had and cherished
what would you do, and why? (I want responses ppl) ^_~
(its just more of my random thinking)
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| blahs |
[26 Jan 2006|07:07pm] |
FUUUCK!!!! My school wont let me drop physics!!! ARRGH!!!! I cant get
out at 10:30 now!! I have a blank period then I have PHYSICS!!!! GRR!!
this sucks...
well in other news I didnt study for my US Hist & Govt regents, so hopefully I passed...heh...
Back at QC for Japanese Class and more hanging out again
Chinese New Yr this sunday! $$$$$$$$$$$ <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I need a job next month...
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| some pics from the trip |
[25 Jan 2006|11:13am] |
pics are all up ppl! I have most on facebook, and I have all on photobucket, if you dont have my photobucket site, I'll link it to you, I dont want to post the link here, but heres some notable pics that I want to post anyway XD
look at it stick up its ass!
look! cooking/frying snow!!
but it looks/smells and prolly tastes nasty
the colorful shots! (light green ones were really good)
the drunk ladybug that I saved from the tray of alcohol
Llamas!! uh huh uh huh uh huh (Emporers new groove XD)
Look! we went to Moscow! lol!!
(And Erik, I'll take that pic or any photobucket/facebook pics off if you dont want them up)
and one more thing...
I cant believe we left stuff there in the fridge!! The chicken, ice cream! and whatever else that was there. does anyone know if they took my grenadine with the liquor?? I just want to know now if the grenadine was left there too!! >.<
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| Trip entry...copied from xanga :P |
[24 Jan 2006|11:29pm] |
SNOWBOARDING IS SO AWESOME! Just came back from the 3-day trip, I'll
have the pics posted on Facebook and in my Photobucket album. Theres
just a few mentions I have to note:
FIRST DAY, while we were heading to the mtn/cabin, on the highway, Dave
started driving side by side with Geoff, and some old man behind Dave
(Next to us, Erik was driving) kept honking like a madman, It was
HILARIOUS, He looked so man, and Erik honked at them too for the heck
of it, but when Dave moved out of the lane, the old dude wasnt really
goin much faster XD.
At the market when we were buying stuff for food, Erik says something
about us all looking alike and the guy at the counter laughs, saying
"this guy is funny, he said they all look alike" OMG! That was so
racist! and it wasnt even meant to be taken that way (cuz Dave, and Ed
basically had the same coats)
Now other than that...to walk you through my general trip...First, on
Saturday, me and Erik went out to buy a shitload of snacks and supplies
and stuff, then Sunday was the trip to the Mtn, we didnt go snowboard,
but we had fun, played a lil football (like a good 15 mins) then a
bunch of random stuff...played some games, uno tourney, food, drinking,
Taboo, Pictionary, AND JACKY KU GOT HIGH! XD ....I tried to sleep
early, but only got to sleep when they all stopped blasting the music
and screaming around 4 AM
woke up at 6 AM with Erik, bothered Jacky, ran outside in the snow
barefoot, started a fire (fireplace), etc. then went SNOWBOARDING for
the day. I went all the way up this time, was awesome, but I fell so
much, snow was soft cuz it just snowed all night. went back after 4:30, got
more groceries, and went back to cook it, and we had more drinking that
night. Me and Camille went outside laid down on the snow, stargazing,
It was beautiful, can never see that in the city, wish I had a pic of
it, pic wouldnt show it. Also there was more drinking, and I got a
massage from Erik. (Luv ya <3) XD
I got up at 5 AM this morning, couldnt go back to sleep, played around
on laptop, then I decided to start cleaning. I was literally
cleaning/cooking from 5 AM till like 10:30 AM. Quite amazing how much
of a mess there was in that house. After that, we all journeyed home,
made several stops, and went to CSA, then we parted. I hung out at
Eriks for a lil bit until I started falling asleep.
on other notes:
FOOD was GREAT I Love you guys!
We got lost SOO many times, Its amazing how we seemed to get lost
EVERYTIME we tried heading back to the cabin (and like 5 other times
not heading to the cabin)
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[16 Jan 2006|05:02pm] |
Snowboarding was fun, painful...but fun...too bad it was waay too windy
for me to enjoy it to the full extent. really hope the 3 day
ski/snowboard trip next week isnt gonna be so bad. CANT WAIT!! woohoo~
NOTE
I also was somewhat in an odd situation in the car...and I say no more...cuz only 2 ppl know what I mean XP
and Im gonna work my ass off in Feb to earn back all the money I've
been spending...gonna work haard...yup yup.................. >__<
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| the social whore strikes back (blah blah blah) |
[14 Jan 2006|04:19pm] |
this week has been so awesome, weathers been really nice, Ive gotten
myself to get my work done lately...I go home and do my hw and I get my
sleep and I can go out w00t! Im keeping my resolutions/goals!! Thurs,
went out to eat with a bunch of CSA ppl, then we were gonna go to Anime
Castle but instead Kim and a few ppl wanted to go play poker in
Brooklyn, so we were all on our way there but it was too nice out, I
didnt wanna go home or stay in, and the traffic was annoying, so Erik
turned around, went back to Flushing. Hung out at Sci Fi for a bit,
then we went to 2 parks to hang out, and stopped by to pay Shawn a
visit. That was a great day, but I was really really tired afterwards
that day for some reason, so I got plenty of sleep.
Friday, after I got out of school, went to Sci Fi then to Phillies for
food, then to Anime Castle. Erik had to work so I hung out with Kim,
Jacky Ku, Geoff, and a bunch of Kim's friends in the city. We bumped
into Esther in Chinatown! :O It was pretty cool, it was such a small
world, cuz I saw my friend Cinthia later on in the bus. Kim says I seem
to always bump into friends when Im with her LOL (Ima social whore XD)
After getting back to flushing I went over to Eriks to watch
movies...got too tired, so I just slept over, and this morning, we went
to get ski equipment, then went to go eat at Korean BBQ. I smelled
horrible comming out from there, damn meat...but I cant hate it
>.< took a shower once I got home.
SNOWBOARDING TOMORROW!!!!!! w00t w00t! Cant wait to bust my ass again
LOL...well...now time to check on new anime and music then start on hw
so I might be able to go out on Monday (my day off ^___^ ) I am really
such a social whore... XP
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[08 Jan 2006|12:11pm] |
my weekend was so awesome (still have that cough...but least Im not hacking my lungs out)..
first I get home from school...and Im in the mood to go out and do
something...and what do you know...Erik tells me about Ed's party, and
says he's goin out. So I went with him to Kim's played DDR (OMG Im real
rusty...I wanna play again though), then we went out to flushing, then
went to Kim's again, then went to pick up Jeff, then went out to eat,
and went to Sheraton for Ed's party. Too bad we were kicked out, we all
went to Caroms later, but I was really tired, and I just kinda slept
for (2 hrs maybe?) then Erik drove ppl home, and I went and hung out at
his house for a while...WE GOT ICE CREAM!!!! went home around 4:40..ran
inside to change, and head out again to pick up cousins at 5. then
we're off to the city to take the bus to Poconos! w00t.
I got sick in the bus cuz the driver was a bad driver, and I was a but
nauseous, so it just made it worse....BUT I was skiing!!!! WOOHOO I
wanna go again! that was pretty much my first time, since my first was
horrible, I didnt know anything, and my cuz took me down the slope..I
kept falling. I wanted to go on the steeper slopes yesterday, but the
girl that was willing to go on harder slopes was scared of that next
one. next time...SNOWBOARDING! well...I'll be home all day doin hw
now...argh..hate school...ruins everything. I could've possibly went
skiing/snowboarding again (with Erik and Dave) or went ice skating
(with Morg and some other ppl)
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| oh goodie...its back to school |
[04 Jan 2006|03:33pm] |
omg....I cant believe my ONE WEEK break is over...it seemed endless cuz
of all the things that happened, and I was constantly depressed, but
now that its over it seemed to have just passed by so quickly. to sum
up my break, I went out skating 2 times in the week, it was great, I
wanna go skating again...I miss skating so much...hung out with some
ppl, seemed like I spent a lot of time with Erik, but he was there for
me a lot so it helped me pull through the hard depressing week.
Well...things have gotten better...only bad thing is it seems like I
really was sick for the whole break, after I got better from the throat
infection, 2 days later I get a cold (which Im currently still healing
from)...and OMG I DIDN'T DRINK!! ME!! PARTY ANIMAL!! NOT PARTYING AND
NOT DRINKING!?!
well anyways, since Im a bit better and not so emo now, I'll post my new yrs goals/resolutions:
1- try to work harder at school, pull through the senior yr with good grades
2- eat healthier, and exercise more to lose that fat, and maybe just be healthier in general
3- try to cut back on the freeloading... (haha...prolly wont be able to do this one)
4- get a job, work hard to save up money, pay off my debt, and start saving for when I move out (w00t!)
5- and lastly keep my friends close, as to not let simple matters ruin
a friendship, and not to make the same mistakes as last yr
now with that said...I will now bury myself under the mountain of
books...make myself do my work and study...as it seems the stress from
school keeps me from thinking too much and getting depressed and
such...especially since finals are comming up...(I hope so badly that I
passed the physics lab final) >__<
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| Happy Fucking New Year |
[31 Dec 2005|10:08pm] |
spending new yrs eve alone is always so depressing, and I still dont
get used to it even if I've been doin it for yrs. I cant even be alone
now I have no privacy with my damn brother hogging my computer. WTF?! I
cant even blast my music on my laptop. I FUCKING HATE THIS!! I could
have gone to a party, but NO my parents actually told me to ask my bro
to take me, so I couldve went if he took me. WTF IS THAT?! it cant get
worse than this, I can even walk there, but I cant go cuz he cant
fucking take me?! All he does is play his damn game on my computer, GO
PLAY ON UR OWN COMPUTER!
this break was horrible...I even picked up on an old habit that took me
so long to finally stop and give up. Its really not good, but at this
point, it makes me feel so much better so I could care less. Dont
bother asking or trying to talk to me about it cuz this time I wont be
telling anyone..only one person knows and I trust him enough.
the snow didnt help me today...I want to go out to take a walk...should
calm me down...but Ill prolly even get questioned to walk around the
neighborhood. maybe Ill go out in the middle of the night....I need
some time alone...just want my damn brother to fucking get out....
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| Life sucks |
[29 Dec 2005|06:44pm] |
Do you ever ask yourself why the term "teenager" exists? why is there a
middle gap called TEENS?! I HATE IT!! Im not a child where I can do
anything I want and just have fun, where life was easy, you had nothing
to worry about, NOR am I an adult where I can have freedom, can do what
I want, live how I want.
Being a teen means you can get all the freedom one week then have it
all taken away from you the next. Being a teen is being in a period of
confusion, in regards to emotions, you're just fucking horny. What teen
really knows what love is? Thats something that builds over time when
you can gradually have an understanding of it, but as for teens, we're
just fucking confused. Those damn raging hormones...
I hate all these restraints that continually tie me down and remind me
I AM JUST A FUCKING TEENAGER! not a child, not an adult, a fucking
teen! A teenager that gets no freedom, no trust, no rights, no love, no
life...all that this makes me want to do is fuck up my life, but after
what I've already gone through, its not even worth it anymore, my life
is fucked up enough as it is, and I fucking hate it, I wish I could
just die right now, and never have existed. I have not made any
significant changes to anyones life, so if I really had never existed,
everyone would be happier, I was born into this world to be miserable.
I continually ask myself...why does anyone like me when I hate myself
so much? What is there to possibly like? Getting close to me in any way
other than friendship will only hurt you, and I can't seem to stop it
at this point. I've hurt my friend(s), I feel horrible, but I feel that
I am just fickle. I cannot think right when it comes to my emotions, I
am just fickle like what I imagined the most hateful girl could
possibly be. I just seem to be becomming everything that I hate, only
resulting in me hating myself all the more.
I want to get out of here! I want to die! I dont want to live anymore!
I wish I never existed...the world would be so much better off if I
never existed. I wouldnt have to be going through this, nor would my
parents. All I ask for is freedom, but why do they continually give it
to me, just to take it away!?
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[26 Dec 2005|10:42pm] |
schools over, xmas break started, I only fucking get a week off this yr
cuz new yrs and christmas are both on sunday. wtf...wish I was in
college already...get the whole month off. and speaking of college, I
WANT MY FUCKING JAPANESE 101 GRADE!!! I think the final was easy, took
my time, but I want my damn grade.
that past few weeks have been horrible, so much stress, and emotional
conflicts, and school conflicts. this break has not been in any way
good yet. I was really sick like 2 fridays ago, but little did I know
that it was a throat infection that would lead to a (vein?) infection
causing my neck to swell up and hurt like hell. I literally have a huge
lump on the right side of my neck.
but in other news, friday was cool, had fun hanging out with ppl to
celebrate the end of the semester, then I went karaoke with caro on sat
to celebrate her bday, and sunday was just horrible. Christmas is
usually bad for me but aside from my whole day sucking, my buddy Erik
came by with a cd to cheer me up (I guess) lol. it really did, after
that my night just slowly got better. (Luv ya Erik!! and yes I'll
cherish the cd forever) and so my day today sucked as well...lets just see how
my break can go, as it cant possible get any worse (i hope)
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| Im so confused.. |
[18 Dec 2005|12:00pm] |
I feel like Im being a real bitch...I think Im becomming really fickle, and I hate it. I think I really like one person...but at the same time Im still attracted to another, but I dont know that person very well, not to mention he's in a relationship. I dont know what Im doing anymore. Im feel like Im leading a lot of guys on, and it really isnt intentional, I had a talk with a friend that accused me of that. I feel so horrible, Im such a slut. I always say that I want to get back into a relationship, but Im still scared to, and I also cant figure out my feelings anymore. With the recent events, I now hate myself even more than ever. I thought that there was nothing more that I could hate about myself since I pretty much hate everything but now I discover this fickle-ness and bitchy slutty-ness, I hate it even more. I know that Im prolly going to rush into something and end up regretting it.
this sucks...I dont deserve to live...Im such a whore..
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| Im an addict...(to everything) |
[13 Dec 2005|12:39am] |
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Im bored so I decided to post...though I have loads of hw to do, and
since I know Im pulling an all-nighter, I decided to update all you
bored people (like myself) on the wonderful boring life of Joyce.
so...my weekend went by pretty quick...did most of my Xmas shopping
already. Friday I went to the earlier jap class so I can go to QCmall
to finish my xmas shopping, then after that, I went home around
7:30ish. I could've went out again, but I was much too tired, being
that I didnt sleep for 3 days prior to that. several of my friends
seemed to be surprised that I actually didnt go out drinking for once,
I should have went though, heard they had a lot of fun.
Saturday, spent the day (hoping to get some hw done, but as usual,
procrastinated) watching anime/dramas then I watched a movie (at home,
by myself), I didnt go to Dre's celebration to the movies cuz I was
broke, but after they went to TGI Fridays, and my friend nagged me to
go, so the deal was if he paid for my stuff and I got a ride back, so
then I went. we ate at Fridays (they got me drinks w00t! great to have
friends over 21). then after, we went to play pool and ping pong. It
was a crazy game of ping pong, we were all over the place...haha, then
I got home at 5am (sunday), was about to stay out longer, but no one
had plans.
I spend my Sunday doin hw, as usual....
and now Im here attempting to do hw, after 4 cups of coffee...I still
havent finished anything...haha...now I really get back to work...
Japanese Final next Tues!! WISH ME LUCK!!
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